I've been through a lot in my life: heartaches, disappointments, illnesses, and hardships. But honestly, it feels like this past month and a half has been absolutely brutal- the biggest and most physically painful battle of my life. My kids and family have been hit hard. I've questioned myself and God,
"Why is this one so hard? Why so long and so brutally difficult? What on earth have I done to provoke the enemy to be this persistent to attack?" I really don't know, but I am moment to moment clinging to what faith I know and being cradled in the prayers of many. I don't understand, but I'm walking blindly in the dark holding Jesus' hand. I guess higher levels of His calling require higher levels of trust and faith.
I am in tears as I write this, because even in the sheer agony of these moments, I still believe...and that in itself is the miracle. Without Poppa God, all would be lost -there would be no more hanging on. I'm sure one day I will look back and see the good that came from this. His word promises that all things work together for good to those who love Him.
I see the posts on our ministry pages and the private messages from people who say "Thank you for sharing your pain and journey." They're helping me have hope. I cry with them. I cry and pray for each one, and they don't know how truly hard it is...then I really get humbled...the kind of lowering of self that says, "God, You are God..."
No matter how raw, low, and sad things seem, still beauty and healing are brought out, even from the most lonely, dark, and hopeless hours. If one transparently exposed tear points a crying soul to the Almighty, it will be worth it all. No reward on this planet may come, but knowing that someone is eternally clinging to God Makes it worth it all.
Tears fall, hearts pound even while bleeding, struggle appears as weakness to those who judge, yet in it all He still shines brighter. He still conquers. He still wins, and that qualifies me as a winner too. ~ Jenny Williams, A Modern Day Ruth, Copyright 2016
This song has been singing to my heart this past week.
https://youtu.be/DzSJ8snhXao
Hello Ruth,
ReplyDeleteI found your blog on accident and can find some relations. I have learned to no matter what talk to God completely randomly can help so much. The industry I am working is mostly free spirited. Some believe something, some believe nothing. To keep sanity when you feel lovely or not understood or, misunderstood. I believe God puts situations and people in our lives for good reasons.
I hope you feel better soon. Nice blog ! Alisha
Keep doing what you're doing sister, and be blessed.
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ReplyDeleteThe Bible 'book' is a compendium of fire side tales and fables,
recounted orally for generations by goat herders and primitive tribes from the stone age, until writing was invented,
and then again, many different sources, transliterations, and versions were copied and written down.
''The Bible was created during a time where stories were orally passed down over thousands of years.
Stories constantly morphed and changed over time, and the Bible is a collection of these.
This is why it has the nearly identical flood story from Gilgamesh, and why Jesus has the same characteristics as Dionysus, Osiris, Horus, Mithra, and Krishna.
The contradictions and immorality in the stories are not evidence that God is flawed or evil,
but rather that humans invented him, just like the thousands of other gods that we used to but no longer believe in.''
...and to answer the questions of the many fears and mysteries of our universe, like 'thunder' and earthquakes, since there was no science yet.
This is the old Testament.
The �new� Testes is also hearsay since these letters, �gospels� and stories were written by the loyal faithful, the camp followers,
not by objective historians at that particular time,
or by any contemporary writers,
and these tales were written many years after the supposed events of this mythical Jesus.
Thus, there is no verifiable evidence of a Jesus in real documented history.
Then, many of these stories, but not all, as many were not chosen,
[ There are more than just four Gospels but only these four were agreed on ],
were compiled for one self-absorbed converted Roman Emperor in his Nicean Council,
for his expressed purpose of conquest and
control of the people of Europe for his Holy Roman Empire.
He recognised that this was the perfect religion/mythology for the future domination of the populaces.
Half of the stories were ignored by the Nicean Bishops and none have been proven to be based on fact.
This �Bable� book is backed up by absolutely no facts and no evidence.
It is not proof for any god(s) ....(or of any jesus as a god...)
It is a historical novel......
Only!
The Bible is proof of a book ONLY (certainly not evidence of any gods...)
Hello I found your blog on Facebook. I want you know I feel so encouraged every time I read A Modern Day Ruth and Boaz. I as well have Lupus and FM and many back issues leading to surgery. I can literally say I understand a bit of your pain but maybe not all of it as it pertains to your body chemistry make up. Oh silly me I am Pastor Kristine Krauss and u can find me on Facebook sharing ur pages 😂 God hass never left nor for for forsaken us just remember that 🥰
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