Being a "Modern Day Ruth" is no easy task or assignment. Even though I try to be positive and remain an example to others in my daily life, I find it to be lonely. Some nights I fight the ache of just wanting to be held by someone who is not ever going to leave me. Going to church on Sunday mornings is painful. I swallow my tears and put on a brave smile. I am grateful to be in the house of God, but it's hard to see families all together. I miss that. I miss a husband putting his arm around his wife during the message, the prayer time, and especially sharing in communion. I close my eyes and remember His promise. This past Sunday during the worship service, the presence of the Holy Spirit was so strong in that place, I shut myself away from everything and just soaked in His beauty. I felt a strong power go through my right hip. So strongly it made my legs wobble like a baby calf. Instantly I felt a presence standing behind me and holding my side. I knew its was the Lord, because He spoke to my spirit and said, "Who is beside you, Jenny? Who is beside you? Who is beside you?" He said it three times so clearly and so strongly. Tears fell from my eyes. "You are, Lord...You are." The road of being a "Ruth" is not an easy one, but remember that He is with you every step of the way. He is closer than a Brother, dearer than a lover, sweeter than a friend. I have found Him to be faithful to me. I choose to be faithful to Him. You are not alone. Jenny Williams, Ruby Wives Copyright 2013
Thank you so much for your encouraging posts. This is a lonely road. My husband left over a year ago after announcing he was gay. It has been a painful year but also a year of tremendous growth in my faith and walk with Abba. I made a conscious decision to work on my relationship with Him, and let him take care of all my other needs. What a blessing you are.
ReplyDeleteThank you, So much for sharing <3 Love and prayers for you, dear sister in the Lord. Yes, He indeed is faithful.
DeleteYour pain and suffering has not been in vain. He speaks to His preciouse daughters through you....your ministry is a blessing and a hope to the broken hearted. Well done, good and faithfull servant! Milly
ReplyDeleteThe tears are just flooding as I read this. This s me. I can't go to church for the very reasons you said.
ReplyDeletePraying for you, Ginger. Keep trying to go as the word and fellowship with other believers are so important.
DeleteI am so glad I came across your blog... like most others on here, I am alone - a woman unwanted by her husband. My word, the pain can be brutal. I look forward to more posts :)
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